Usually, at this hour, 4:27 am, I would be tightly sleeping under my comforters but I guess I am not. I just had a bad dream. It was not a nightmare; it just scared me. And since I was not able to blog last night, I guess, I am taking the time right now to do so. It's my first time blogging in the morning. It's fun actually. It's all quiet here and the view outside my window is scary because it's dark. If I go out my room, everything is dark as well. In short, everything is just dark except my place. I know, I bring light to darkness. Okay, malabo. Pagbigyan, minsan lang naman to eh. Medyo bangag pa nga ako eh. Sorry, if there will be any technicalities in this post, I really don't mind my grammar & spelling right now.
    My dream just made me all emotional. Grabe, I can't imagine that dream coming true. I hate the dream I had because it was so real. What I meant by that is it's too real that it is even possible to come true. Part of me is telling that it soon will & that the dream I had was one of those "Joseph-the-dreamer" one that is prophetically true. NO! My dreams are usually those fantasy ones. Some are even weird that I do not understand it anymore. Nonetheless, I appreciate more those dreams because I know I can only experience them in my dreams and it won't come true. But what I dreamt was scary. I don't want to elaborate more about the dream i had. Sakin na lang yun. :p
    I just wanted to share some insights I thought of as I woke up a few minutes ago. When I woke up, the obvious reaction I felt was relief. I was glad that dream is finally over. I prayed first before I got off my bed and did all the girl stuff I needed to do and ended up in front my laptop since it was ON.     
    My greatest fear has always been losing someone. Besides the obvious ones like rats, lizards, frogs and etc. the one that goes underneath it all is that. I cannot take losing someone I care for. Even people leaving for a few days, or months or years, will take me an even longer period to accept besides the one actually leaving. Most especially if the person leaving is close to my heart. I just realized that I have to face it. People will not be there with me forever. It is just too impractical to say it is. Maybe, in the cheesiest way, it may be true because love stays on forever but technically speaking, people can't stay. People always leave and I should be able to handle that. But what if I can't? Crap. I can't even imagine leaving the country yet. There's so many things that got me bothered after that freaking dream.     
    Okay, I will just end it here since it is already 4:55 am. Wow, that took me a long time. Haha. I'll go back to sleep now. :
    Cuidate everyone!